I was so worried about Ana's reaction to them. I wanted the day to be wonderful. We agreed to spend the day at my parents home where the kids could all get out and have more room to move. I told my Mom one night about my "expectations" and she told me not to go in with any. I laughed and told her she never had any expectations on anything and she laughed back and said; "And that is why I'm never disappointed". I threw my expectations out the window and just prayed over Ana that night. I prayed that she would just be "Ana". If ever there was a time where I could look at my Heavenly Father and say; "I LOVE YOU AND THANK YOU SO MUCH" it would have been on Saturday. As they pulled into the driveway I immediately went out to greet them. I told Jimbo to go and get the kids. (Ana, Ethan and Nora) As Ana came outside I pointed to Fran/Gigi
(her great-grandmother) and she ran to her and wrapped her arms around her neck and held on for so long. I stood there literally shocked. Was this my child? Where did this come from? And then I knew. We were watching our prayers being answered.
Ana got to spend time with Gigi, her great-grandfather- Papa, her half brother- Kyle, and her half sister- Shayla. All the kids got along so well. Nora showed Kyle how to use the ipod and "watched" over everyone only as Nora can do.
I watched and listened to the kids as they played. And it was beautiful how they accepted one another so easily. All the adults got along and that is the hardest thing sometimes. I think occasionally we need to take lessons from children. It was really nice to see everyone and have an insight into their world.
Towards to the end of the afternoon the kids broke out their swimsuits and hit the trampoline. Yes, trampoline, not pool. Mom and Dad do not have a pool so to improvise we spray the trampoline with a water hose. The kids LOVED it! It was hilarious to watch. My husband and the rest of the men were brave enough to go outside but the women were smart enough to stay in doors. Ana got the water hose from my Dad and began to spray everyone. It was so funny! She chased my husband around with it and as my Dad was taking pictures she began to attack him with it as well. It was the perfect ending to an incredible day.
As the evening came to a close I realized that its okay to have expectations but its not okay to want to "control" the situation. And that is what I was confusing. I wanted Ana to be herself and I was trying to control the day and blaming it on "my expectations". God is bigger than me and all things. I forget that every single day. If I would just let Him do His job I'd be a lot better off.
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